Tuesday, March 14, 2006
A lesson learned
A friend at work today told me that he's the token nice guy. Even when disrespected, demeaned, or taken advantage of he would still try to be the bigger person and play nice with those that treat him poorly. I told him I could never do that. Instead, I'd probably plot to take vengeance on them and get satisfaction from watching them suffer. I'm mean no? Well, maybe it's the Capricorn in me. I hold grudges, I'm at times rigid, hard-headed, and a bit egotistical. I can't help it sometimes. But after talking with him, I realized that I shouldn't always act like I'm the center of the universe. I shouldn't have temper tantrums when I don't get my way and I should respect the differences of others. But is it wrong to want a little respect, consideration, and loyalty from those you consider your friends? Am I being too sensitive when I feel like I'm not getting it? I've been told I'm a nice person and no, I'm not always the person I described earlier. I never knew it, but I guess I am a sensitive person. And I do need to not let these things bother me. No one's perfect and I shouldn't take everything so personal.